I brought into my sober life a junk load of bad debt. Some of which have been taken care of. I bought a car 6 years ago. I wasn't always the best of payor but I have managed to get that straight and was looking forward to the last payment, which I thought would be early summer. I found out yesterday that the loan was 4 months longer than I realized and that it will be 11 more months. I was sick. I held that inside which allowed it to fester to "your worthless". It's that old thinking that must be overcome by my new truths. The fact is I have paid on this car for 6 years. Yeah! Other debts still linger including some new ones. I do the best I can at taking care of them as I can. If it hadn't been for MC posting that it took her 10 years of financial amend making to get it done, I probably would feel like giving up. Which is crazy. I mean this doesn't own me. My credit rating is symbolic of a life I left behind. So, taking it a piece at a time is what I can do. I ask God for the strength to continue to do the right thing which is paying them.
So, I relax. Take it easy. I am no longer running the show. I won't allow my feelings to tell me how I am doing. They have never been reliable so why start now?
Being sober means I am walking through this "life" stuff one day at a time.
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