Fall(ing)

The fall of the year and of life

 

I love the change in seasons; well I say that but want to add I hate to see the end of summer.  However, here we are in the fall of the year, Halloween has passed and Thanksgiving will soon be here.  The leaves are a beautiful mix of orange and yellow and browns.  It is amazing to watch the change and then the fall.  Falling leaves; an end to yet another year… about 8 weeks from ringing in the New Year but let’s not hasten that.

Fall brings so much to us.  Color, cooler temps, wonderful celebrations almost renewing us after a long hot summer, almost… ok, it does for me and I’m sure to others as well.  My favorite pie is pumpkin and my love for pumpkin spills in to other recipes.  Last year I made pumpkin spread and gave it out.  I plan on doing the same for some friends of mine.  I love pumpkin bread and still have the recipe my mother so loved.  We have birthdays in the fall and on into winter for family members.  Football… let’s not forget football.  My precious granddaughter plays in the high school band so every Friday is spent at the field.  She is awesome and I am extremely proud of her.  Of all of them.. The best thing to my life….

We have our time change ‘fall’ back.  Falling prices just in time for the hustle and bustle of those holiday shopping excursions.    So, this is about falling… seasons, temps and health…

This is the beginning of the end of someone’s life.  He is so sick and nothing will change that.   His decline began several years ago but the diagnosis was not made until Sept 2013.  In this past year he has been through so much.  Chemo, more chemo and more…..  Now he is at the experimental drug stage.  Which, in reading the side effects could kill him.  From his own words, I’m gonna die; either the cancer or this drug… the outcome will be the same.  How heartbreaking that must be to know for the person; how heartbreaking it is for his children to know and watch.  I choke up thinking about it.  I have written about this in previous entries and the fact remains the same…

So as Thanksgiving approaches there is a sadness about.  I guess everyone knows and no one is saying.  Will he make it?  Will he make it to Christmas?  How his life has diminished.   I get so sad and can’t change any of it and certainly can’t alleviate the inevitable for those around him.

So, as sure as summer turns to Fall, so Life turns to Death.  We all have numbered days.  I think of how those days are spent for him and want to scream at my own.  Start living as if this were your last days.  Do all that you wanted, love all those you can and most of all form a relationship with the God of your understanding  so as not to be alone after the darkness closes your/our time on earth..