Heaven or Hell

Thinking………………..

A precious lady friend divorced her philandering husband after 35 years.  Dare I say he was also a preacher.  Philandering preacher.  REALLY?  That is another story.  The reason behind this post is letting go.  Letting go of what we have, of what we want, of what we desire.  Please do not think that a negative remark.   Read on.

So my friend finally finds a mate.  Her soul mate.  I did not get the opportunity to meet him as she had moved away from the madness here to a quieter place, her happy place, if you will.  There, low and behold she meets “W”.   They married 10 months ago.  Hurrah for peace and happiness to them both.  Totally forgetting the horrors of that other union.

Tues.  she lets us know that ‘w’ had a massive stroke.  After several attempts to correct the damage as well as save his life………………….  They could not.  He is now in a transitional space--- literally………..    a place waiting to go to the next space – in time --- endless?  Who knows.

How does this happen.  Damn it for happening.  Her happiness… Finally… and his.  WTH!  So I yelled at God, as I have before in an attempt to find the answers to His plan.  Or perhaps at the reality that IF He is all the power, then why, why take “w” now?

My insides swell just thinking about that.  Driving to work this morning in quiet reflection several things came to mind.  1) who am I to judge this outcome  2) they both found love again, so is that a bad thing?  3) perhaps, just perhaps this relationship, albeit a short lived one; gave her the courage to love again.  Allowed her the opportunity to know a fine man.  And, maybe that is what he received as well.  So, as the thoughts lingered on, and traffic would grab my attention here and there, I began to see things from a different perspective.  Tragic as it is, and nothing can take that away, she could heal in a different way from this pain.  Somewhere down the road.  We will be waiting… watching… loving her and knowing nothing is certain in this life.

And, here is the kicker……….. how does this affect me?  Do I continue to be bitter?  Angry?  Fearful?  Someone dropped from my life and it hurt like hell (but that healing has been written too many times here), that the bitterness could be turned around by another love…. BUT  what if he……………………..

 

Too much thinking and not enough quiet reflection of all that I have seen and experienced of the power of God’s presence in my life……………..

 

Here’s to you Ms M and to you Mr W…………………………  nothing can tear you apart…………..