While I want to be honest in this blog about things,
sometimes just writing makes it too real.
Lately, maybe too sad. But, life
is just that… sad and real. I always
say… it just keep coming at ya.
So in a few days my kids will have a ‘celebration of life’
for their dad. I started to say ‘goodbye’
to their dad, but they did that before he died.
So, celebration seems so jovial.
Well maybe it is meant to be.
Not funny, but perhaps uplifting in that he certainly left
his footprint on this earth. Good or
bad, he was part of the human race. And
they love(d) him. Their days, nights
will be drenched with every emotion I can only imagine. But they will get through this. We all will.
To try and ascertain they whys and why not’s of this passing
would not make any difference, so here we sit.
I have cried with them, laughed with them, sat with them, listened to
them………………….. and most of all loved them during this time (and any other for
that matter). But grief takes all forms
and we can not lessen the pain, nor shorten the time it takes to stop it; but I
am on standby.
On a different note; I saw the movie, ‘Wild’ with Reese
Witherspoon.. really an interesting movie.
I mean it was based on a book written by a woman that trekked 1,000
miles on the pacific coast trail alone.
Backpack and boots. Took 3 months
and the journey was healing in itself. The
loss of her mother, her marriage and the letting go of a life that was so
broken. So, her healing began with that
first step…
But that got me wondering.
How awesome it would be (I think) to just go. To just pack up and head out on a fantastic
journey of healing and self-discovery.
Wow! I just want that opportunity. Maybe not a wilderness trek, but a freeing
experience that says, ‘I am not going to answer to anyone’ that I am free to go
and do without restraints. I just
wondered, perhaps not a 3 month journey but maybe a couple of weeks. Maybe.
Just alone with me, the air that I need and the sound of wind, water and
peace. Ahhhh.
The end of this post says little of the world around me and
work. It continues to beat me down and
each time I rise and hope that will keep me abreast for a while. That movie hit me in the gut and perhaps Tom’s
passing that what in the hell am I/we waiting on………. Make that change…
today. Step out on faith. Find your/my passion and by God live it!
God…………… yes………….. let me run that past Him……….. He may have
a different plan for me…… J
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