New Beginnings…………….. Heartaches and Happiness (I think)
January 2, 2015 Blink and the year is gone. And so it was. Not the best of holidays for the family. Tom (kid’s dad) passed away on Dec 31st
at 2pm. Incredibly painful to watch my
children. I have not seen my grandkids
yet but will tonight. D said they are
trying to process albeit lots of tears.
And we just can’t take that away.
I have thought many times since then of how to talk to kids (small)
about death. I know there are books out
there; but how does a family talk to their family? This time I believe they did it right. Mom, dad and uncle sat down with all of them
and told them with love. Gave them all
the breathing room they needed, lots of tears, hugs and more…………….. I’m sure it was hard on all of them.
It just dawned on me … that was only 2 days ago. God what a fog. Thankfully yesterday was a holiday for
most. I believe those that knew him
walked around in a daze. Kids went to
his house and packed up some personal items…. I pulled up and began to
cry. It was December 21st
when he asked ‘D’ to take him to the hsp.
It was the next day they sent him home with hospice. He knew, we all knew the end was near, yet……
do we ever really ‘know’? I have
thought of so many things. How do you
process that you are near death? How? What goes on inside? He had been fighting cancer for about a
year. Since the end of summer everyone
held their breath praying for one more week.
Make it to “m’ wedding - thank
you Jesus! Make it to Halloween, Thanksgiving….
Xmas… Syd’s trip…. All those dates came
and went… and then he was gone. This has
truly sent shock waves internally for me.
Wow, we are mortal. Where did he
go? Was he afraid? Is he with Jesus? Was he aware of the activity surrounding him
in those last hours? That “M” never left
his side. This man could be a royal pain
but he loved his kids and adored those grandbabies.
So, there will be the year of…… without him. Every holiday, event will pass with silence
knowing he won’t be there. His estate
(if you will) may be a mess without a will…. And all of this has fallen on the
man child’s shoulders. What a turn of
events. Thank you God that “m” was clean
and sober. That his dad got to see how
truly precious his kids are and that ‘m’ was going to have a better life.. Tom
always made sure the grandkids had what they needed and most of what they
wanted. That will cease as we cannot
carry that load financially. One of the
first things he told ‘m’ when they said this is the end was, ‘make sure they
always have a good xmas’…. How truly heartbreaking is that?
So………….. sad ending to 2014 but other happiness was
found. The marriage of ‘M&A’…
Miracle of miracles. Syd’s wonderful
trip to Disneyworld and the Outback bowl.
Not many kids get to do that…
The end of life will happen for all of us……….. but I pray
that none of us has to feel that loss anytime soon.
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