Yes, let go. Let go after a relationship ends, let go of the dreams you wanted for people that can not live up to them; let go of the delusion that I can, in anyway, MAKE this stuff happen. What a lark AND what a realization. I CAN'T.
I have had a bad week. Son in jail for another drug related offense; man and I are over, and sister is in ICU. So, today is Friday and I am so glad. It's been hard sitting at my desk wracked in pain and not being able to let it out. No tears, no nothing. And believe me THAT is hard.
I slept horrible last night. up and down all night and finally stayed up at 4:30am. Did not go to the gym. Just took time to catch up on "things".
Life isn't always fair but sober I can at least be present to participate...
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