Grief does funny
things to us. Recognizing the grief
itself and then ascertaining what I am truly feeling can be challenging,
especially in the middle of it. Days can
still be sad but that only lasts for a few minutes or until I change the
thought process. And boy what a process.
The anger I displayed
2 weeks ago (really? It seems longer ago
than that) has diminished greatly leaving the sadness behind. The one truth that I still stand on is I did
the right thing breaking it off with him and booting him out the night of my
birthday. I won’t relive all of that but
it is still pretty raw.
I’m gaining back
my singleness these days. Several trips
planned one of which is this weekend.
Camping has always been a feel good for my family with so many good
memories that it makes perfect sense to go now.
The fall temps will be cool at night (in the 50’s) and the daytime air
about mid 70’s. I plan on kayaking
around the lake; my traveling companion is my sweet sister who has listened, talked
to me and most of all kept an understanding presence for me. Her and my best friend have made a huge
difference during the last few months. I
may be moving slow but I am moving.