Saturday in the Park........

So, I take my ego driven self downtown this morning to try my hand (uh, body) at body boot camp.  Now, I work out, lift weights, run, elliptical, repeat.. Got the picture?  Yeah, well nothing prepared me for this.  Mostly high intensity cardio, my least attentive activity.  Oh, and let me also add that we were outside in the park, next to the canal.  REally pretty, and a slight breeze blowing the 78 degree temps around.  I am not joking when I say I was afraid more than once that I was going to pass out.  Did I quit?  NO, of course not.  Ego, Ego, Ego!  But i'm glad I didn't.

Relationship post again.  I am just sick of being single, most of the time.  I just keep feeling the physical effect of age and knowing it truly does play a huge role in who we 'think' we are.  What I am trying not to do is let my head noise keep me in bondage over yet one more relationship opportunity down the drain.  I keep telling myself and whispering to God, please remove all the people from my life that do not lend anything to a spirit driven life.  This includes the opposite sex.  A friend said this morning  to 'trust' in the process (no matter what that process is doing).  Some days I am successful and that and others, not so much.

This sounds like I am pitiful, but actually I am disappointed, but know that when it's 'right' it will be there.  Enjoy life daily, let Him take me where He wants me to be.

On July 7th it will be 3 years since my painmeds panic.  That 'white' chip that I never wanted to touch again was handed to me once more.  Now, I still like to remember that it has been over 7 years of no drinking.  That just doesn't seem fun any more.  So, 3 years and thank you God that for that short 3 days I was brought back quickly and did not go down the oh shit shoot one more time.

I think I will shower and head to a movie and dinner.  All by myself.  To see....... well i'm not sure but the weather does not look good outside so it is probably a great day to hit the theatre. 

Enjoy your Saturday, be it in the park or wherever.