Life is too short

I lost a friend the other day.  He had been given an 18month prognosis after finding brain cancer.  He made it just that long.  His battle was courageous.  He married his girlfriend after the diagnosis, a decision they both decided on for whatever reason.  His impact on the fellowship I belong to was unmeasurable.  They talked of grace and dignity when they described him.  We never saw him feeling sorry for himself  in spite of what he was going through.  We are all better humans just knowing him.  And he is healed, finally.

So, one of the woman I have worked with for 3ish years in our program went back at it full force.  She may not make it back.  Just too much trauma in her short life that just can’t be changed to help her grow beyond it.  Drinking gives her peace, if only for a moment.  It breaks my heart but honestly….. I can’t make her want to be sober.

It is January 17^th and the temps outside show it.  The high today will be in the 40’s but it is certainly chilly.  I am not a cold weather fan and spring can not come soon enough.  After the holidays I want to jump right into spring.  The months of Jan-Mar are dark, cold and depressing.

No raise this year.  Boss told me that our Obama care has taken my raise, since my healthcare has gone up $200.00 a month, he has decided that is where our raise will go.  He pays the entire $500.00 a month and I am more than grateful for that, but my pocketbook will be over $2,000 shorter because of this.  Again, where is the affordable stuff that asshole told us we would get/have.  No truth to that at all.  And forgive my French!

Full weekend with the grandkids planned.  I am happy to spend this time with them.  They are my babies!

Hopefully the end of this week brings reflections of joy and peace, all of which are gifts from above.