I recently went through (if you read this you know) a really tough time. During that time I tried to keep up w/ my sponsee's to the best of my ability. I felt like what I was going through was not to be discussed w/ them. You know, they come to me (or us) for direction, help, etc. Not to hear me whine. Well a friend in the program with almost 30 years sober, told me that is wrong. We are human and fallible. We get sick, some of us drink again. And I had no business not being honest w/ them. I realized what she said made sense. Why would I want anyone to think I'm "fine". If I'm not.
So, through this all I have lost a sponsee but my other 2 stayed. They are so precious to me. More friendships have come of this whole "will you help me" mode than anything.
I still have 2 weeks till I can chair meetings again. Going by our strict code of 90 days sober (yes, the old white chip for a few pain pills still haunts me). I will feel a part of once again.
Staying sober is not a chore, it's a gift.
Thank you God for keeping me sober (yes KEEPING me). I co-operate and look what happens. Amazing!
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