by "we" you know by now I mean the people doing the "deal' in the halls of our fellowship. I say, YES. Unfortunately there are many others that feel they are failed by our program. I laugh at that notion. As it says, follow us on this journey. We don't ever have to drink again. I believe that. After some time if/when we do it is by choice, albeit a sad one.
I sponsor a woman that is in constant crisis (within the infamous head of hers). For the past year I have sat with her, I have listened to her, I have encouraged her, I have taken her through the steps, I have shown her how we are to help others. She still says this is too hard. she took a drink several weeks ago and got that sense of ease and comfort that comes at once. I'm sure that seed will begin to grow.
I know for me I had to grow into a place that really understood step 1. GROW. I mean to just say it was one thing. To fully believe it is another. The insidious disease we have will stop at nothing. That is why we have a DAILY reprieve. Cause when i let up on my spiritual growth the "old" me starts to creep back in, as it tries to hide underneath hurt, anger, you name it.
Somedays I do shortcut this thing. I don't read some material. I may not make a meeting. But at the end of the day I am assured one of the woman I sponsor (and love) will call and the program springs to action. I love it.
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