When we give of our time, of ourselves exactly why do we and what do we want from that act?  I'm talking sponsorship.  I have sponsored woman that drop out of sight and others that stick around for all the promises to come true.  I have one that just doesn't get it.   She has asked someone to help her.  Really?  My first thought and knee jerk reaction was.... well  F her.   However, when she called me after that my heart jumped to be able to offer her some solution based living.  It's up to her if she uses these suggestions or not.   I hung up thinking how miraculous it was that I did not tell her to get lost.  To use the school yard tactics of a 5 year old to make my point.  HUH!  You don't want me then FINE!   We all know what I'm talking about.   Not doing that told me there is a power greater than all of us that steps in and IF we allow that power to flow, life is better.   
She is a wonderful woman.  Struggling w/ early sobriety.  What if i had been pushed aside early on?  What if whomever was sponsoring me (at that time, as I have had a few) told me to find someone else?!  
The emotionally immature side of me (then) would have been devistated.  Cause I would make it all about me!  She doesn't like me!  Whaaa!   
Now, full circle, I just listened w/ love and understanding while she stated her position.   
No anger, no retaliation.  Just love.
Wow.  God you are awesome and I am so excited to be a vessel for YOUR message. 
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